13.1 miles: One step at a time

Posted on December 23, 2012


Last August I wrote Reality Check about my dad’s lymphoma, chemo and joining the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society’s (LLS) Team In Training (TNT). Since then when I mention that I’m running a half marathon to raise money and awareness for leukemia, lymphoma and other blood born cancers I get asked “How do you run 13 miles? I can’t even walk 1”. My pat answer has been “Lots of training”.

Today, as I pushed through my longest training miles the answer finally came to me: “I take 1 step at a time”.

A step for those that have survived cancer

A step for those who have fought valiantly and lost

I take many steps for my dad Grover who is in the last days of his losing battle against non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma.

A step for our close friend Nancy

A step for my favorite uncle Jim

A step for my former coworker and friend Allen

a step for Donna V and a step for Glory B

I take a step for those who have fought hard and that I never met

I take a step for those who have survived

A step for cousins Jess O and for Michelle who are still with us

I take a step for Peter, my father in law who survived throat cancer only to be taken later by Alzheimer’s.

I take steps for those who survived and that I’ve never met

I take a step for each memory lost, 2 steps for every memory retained

I take a step for their pain. And when my body gets tired and sore and I don’t think I can take another step, I think “but if they can go through radiation and chemo, I can put up with a little discomfort”

I take steps for love and for compassion. And steps for grief and anger at having lost someone you love.

I take steps for their will to keep on and live one more day. And when my mind starts to tell me “it’s too far, your body is tired” I think of how people who go through radiation and chemo, some even knowing it’s only buying them time, and I keep taking steps. If they can fight, I can keep going.

I take steps because I can and they can’t.

I take steps out of frustration and the injustice of this disease.

I take steps for remorse and regret, and days lost and days that will never be recovered, and for days that will never be seen.

I take steps for hope.

And if I still don’t see the finish line, I start over again, and take more steps for those that have survived, those who fought and lost. Steps for love and hope. And step by step, mile by mile, I finish.

So please, if you have been touched by cancer, or know someone who has been touched by cancer, help me give them hope by donating to the LLS through my LLS/TNT  fundraising page. Just as I run 1 step at a time, these types of diseases are cured 1$ at a time.